Happy Birthday
Mom
You did say
You wanted to spend your
50th
Far
Away
From everyone
Guess you fulfilled your own wish
How is Nevada?
All you cracked it up to be since you cracked up?
I hope so
Hows things?
Now that youve alienated us all?
Good I hope
Thats the fucked up part of it all
I should be a fucking wreck
The sad answer to it all
Is I was just standing in the kitchen
Upset that I finished my pint of Beam
Cracked another Pabst
And wanted nothing more than to cry
To cry over how youve fucked up
To cry because I miss you
To cry because youre my mother and not here
Like you havent been for some time
But more importantly
That you havent been here
For your grandson
He has just about forgotten you
He is lucky
He doesnt have to stand in the kitchen
Wanting nothing more
Than to cry
And not being able to
That
Is something
I wish on nobody
So
Happy
Birthday
Mom
Wish you were here
Wish you were near
Wish you were my mother again
Wish you cared enough to care enough
But its not to be
So have a great day
If thats possible
Without me
Or your grandson
Then I should probably go back into the kitchen
And force the tears out
But they wont come
And I dont know if I should be upset about it
Or not.
