I accept this fact
As false as it may be
I mean
INDEED
I am truly an asshole
But not in the way I am painted
Day in
Day out
33 years of days
In my mind
The only one that
Doesnt
Think of me in those terms
Is my son
And I fear that he just hasnt been brainwashed
Into thinking that same way yet
Soon enough he will hear
The bullshit tossed around about me
With older ears
I pray he does not buy into it
Though Ive spent the better part of my life
Hoping
That those I care about
Dont buy into it
They do
They do
And then they fucking do some more
I got my fucking faults
No argument here
But as Ive said before
I wake up everyday
My only aim being to be happy
And hope that I bring happiness to those around me
I have learned the hard way
That its far easier to have that goal
Then to actually achieve it
But fuck it
When I believe in my
Heart
Head
And mythical soul
That I am doing all I can
Than it becomes everyone elses problem
If they think I aint
Easier
Written
Then
Believed
But Ill keep trying
To convince myself
That what I do is right
Those that disagree
Well
I guess its their right
Full of shit or not
Their perceptions are their reality
And mine are mine
Stalemate?
Probably
33 years have proved at least that.
