Lately
As of late
Its all about the stronger
Pull
The will to live
Or the will to die
No god(s)
Damned
Soul
Knows what the fuck is boiling
Roiling
Toiling
Soiling
Inside my fucking head
I should be locked up
Knocked up
Beaten the shit out of
But youre all too fucking weak to do anything about it
The signs have been there
86% of my life
Bury my head
'Tween my knees
I DONT FUCKING UNDERSTAND ANY OF YOU
I DONT FUCKING RELAE TO ANY OF YOU
I DONT FUCKING
K
N
O
W
ANY OF YOU
You all sit and fucking take it
The blistering
Day IN
DAY out
BULLSHIT
Of life
WHY?
Who amongst you has shown some initiative?
Who amogst you has shown some FIGHT?
Nun.
I drink til just the point of vomit
I listen to Slayer
Close my eyes
And when the spinning
Spins
I realize its time to eat something
And sleep
Reading into this will let you know my failures
I cant see anything through
To the point of vomit
Woe
Is
Fucking
Me
Fucking
Me
Is
Woe
Ask my wife
Snoring
Snoring
Snoring
Wedding rings?
Scattered about
Lost
Forgotten
Discarded
Fine
Papers and vows
Signatures
Big
Fucking
WHOOP
She can lie thru her fucking teeth
Better than me
Even though Im missing a shitload of mine
I used to have a
FAMILY
I now have me
And people that share my blood
Boiled down to brass tacks
Ass
Jacks
I cant fucking be them
I cant fucking be you
I cant be anything
Save for the twisted shit that I am
33 years of bucketloafs
Of people trying to make me them
Sorry
You sorry
Shits
I am me
As fucked and unacceptable
As I am to you
I am me
Will be me
And continue to be me
Thru all your protests
And pointing out of my short-comings
Fucking HURRAH for you
I dont care
And thats not flippant
I TRULY
DO
NOT
CARE
The shit that I care about
You could roll up and smoke
And get high for about :45 seconds
This will lead me out
This will lead me down sick diseased paths
Ive already been down them
They will not break me
YOU will not break me
Trust this
I can live without you
I cannot say the same for you
Happy
Halloween
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